Too much to do simultaneously. Too much stupid stuff for too many hours that I don't want to do, getting in the way of the things I need to do. Too many unknowns.
I have a lot of work I have to finish before Saturday morning and I have to attend a stupid meeting all afternoon. There was something I wanted* to attend at 8:30pm. Tomorrow, I am going to attempt to take a train to another city in Japan, by myself. And then stick my suitcase, hopefully, in a locker at the train station? I don't have a backpack. The shoulder bag I had is ripping from all of the weight of my computer so I cannot use it. I am suppose to meet people in Kyoto, who will be coming from the very southern tip of Japan but I don't want to depend on them to not change their plans. We are suppose to get a hotel Saturday night. But if they don't make it, I cannot afford a place by myself. It is so difficult to get around and I fear getting lost.
I'm stressed today :-(
A postdoc told me not to worry about the two presentations I have to give in lab. That they are good for practicing communicating what is important, how presenting is important, etc. I had to work hard to let him keep talking for 30min about it b/c I am NOT worried about those two presentations, I am annoyed that I have to do them when they get in the way of working, also, his speech about not stressing was getting in the way of the stuff I have to finish by the meeting which will take up the remainder of my day. I don't have an endless amount of time here! :-I Now I only have 40min before stupid lab meeting. Three hour meetings where people speak slowly and in hushed tones is torture for trying to stay awake.
I think the professor intentionally schedules lab meetings for Friday afternoon/evening and Monday morning so that people cannot go on any extended trips. I will never get to go more than a few towns over for the weekends during me work time :-(
BLAH.
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